Because you do. It’s fucking stupid. But I believed everything you said to me. When you said you’d never leave and you couldn’t ever do it without me. I can’t do it without you. I just can’t And I am sorry. But unlike you I do actually have a heart and I do still love you. After all this, after the time we were together I still love you. But I was nothing to you, or at least that’s the way it seems. I never got a full explanation, I got a text. After 2 fucking years and I get a text. And even when you came back and then fucking left again I didn’t even get that. It got hidden from me and you lied about it. When you were so worried about me leaving you and you made all these pictures and all these posts on your blogs, I’ve seen them all before, I read them. You’ve never needed me. I have needed you though. And yes, I get that he’s a better dad to cas than I am and I get that he’s a better boyfriend than i ever was. But you know me, get inside my head a little bit or failing that, think of what you were like when you thought I was going to run off with any other girl that came along, even though I had you. Think of what you were like with Danni. You blame her for it more than you blame me. I’m just doing the same. Except, with this case it’s not like he just turned up for a night. You fucking replaced me with him. I’m going to over think everything and replay everything back in my head a million times over until I go crazy, if I already haven’t. I’m not getting through this like I should. I’m so fucking tired. I just want to be done with it. All of it.